Husband-less Confluence
Jul. 27th, 2005 05:55 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
baka_na_hahaMy husband injured his back the Wed. before Confluence and was basically flat on his back for a week. Now, J is a big, strong guy who has never had a back problem in his life. Just hearing his voice mail message where he was having back spasms and in obvious agony totally freaked me out. I cannot stand it when someone I love is hurting!
Plus, I hate uncertainty, and with Confluence and then Cape Cod coming up, it threw all our plans into an uproar. I couldn't help but remember how our last several trips were screwed up and started to get superstitious. First, there was Confluence to deal with: X was flying out just to go to Confluence, so I clearly had to get him there. But I agonized over whether to drive him to Pittsburgh, then drive back to Cleveland to take care of J, then go back to Pittsburgh to pick up the kids. J insisted that there was nothing I could do to help his back, so I should go to Confluence with the kids. I did, but I worried about J the whole time.
Having J laid up certainly made me appreciate him (which I already did - honestly!) I love long car rides with kids - but that's because J does the driving. I actually get pretty nervous doing long drives and trafficy drives within strange cities since I have no sense of direction at all. We got everywhere pretty smoothly, but it was definitely not relaxing for me.
What I didn't expect was how lonely Confluence would be without J. I still had a good time, and the Con itself was fine, but I felt pretty isolated and alone. I try to stay out of my kids' way so they can have fun with their friends (although they were kind enough to not seem to mind when I did hang around some - like at DBK's impromptu reading, etc) It's just that I don't have a peer group at Confluence. It seemed like everyone was either an Alphan (or related) kid or a hard-core sci fi/fantasy type who was working the Con or a regular. New Shannon's Mom was the only other Alpha parent there, and it was fun to see her, but she wasn't around a lot.
Eating well and exercise have gotten totally neglected as I have spent every bit of my energy being a single parent and worrying about J, paranoid that he will do something stupid to further hurt his back (ok, Ann's cookies didn't help any either!)
Plus, I hate uncertainty, and with Confluence and then Cape Cod coming up, it threw all our plans into an uproar. I couldn't help but remember how our last several trips were screwed up and started to get superstitious. First, there was Confluence to deal with: X was flying out just to go to Confluence, so I clearly had to get him there. But I agonized over whether to drive him to Pittsburgh, then drive back to Cleveland to take care of J, then go back to Pittsburgh to pick up the kids. J insisted that there was nothing I could do to help his back, so I should go to Confluence with the kids. I did, but I worried about J the whole time.
Having J laid up certainly made me appreciate him (which I already did - honestly!) I love long car rides with kids - but that's because J does the driving. I actually get pretty nervous doing long drives and trafficy drives within strange cities since I have no sense of direction at all. We got everywhere pretty smoothly, but it was definitely not relaxing for me.
What I didn't expect was how lonely Confluence would be without J. I still had a good time, and the Con itself was fine, but I felt pretty isolated and alone. I try to stay out of my kids' way so they can have fun with their friends (although they were kind enough to not seem to mind when I did hang around some - like at DBK's impromptu reading, etc) It's just that I don't have a peer group at Confluence. It seemed like everyone was either an Alphan (or related) kid or a hard-core sci fi/fantasy type who was working the Con or a regular. New Shannon's Mom was the only other Alpha parent there, and it was fun to see her, but she wasn't around a lot.
Eating well and exercise have gotten totally neglected as I have spent every bit of my energy being a single parent and worrying about J, paranoid that he will do something stupid to further hurt his back (ok, Ann's cookies didn't help any either!)
